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Friday, September 29, 2006
5:27 PM
tsk tsk...
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2:49 PM
kwento
ako'y magkwekwento sa inio.. :)
kahapon.. sobrang boring..
gitara nlang ng gitara..
tpos lumalabas din ng pintuan.. pero ndi ng gate..
sarap kasi ng hangin.. :)
nung ptapos na kmi kumain ng lunch...
*BLAG!!* *AAAAYY!!!*
lumabas kami.. tinignan kung ano ung nangyari sa aming beloved neighbor..
tsk tsk.. nabagsakan ng puno ng mangga ung bubong nila.. giba..
tpos.. may naputol sa lines dahil nga dun sa puno.. [wala kaming bayantel... :( ]
tpos.. may natumba ring lampost.. after an hour.. andyan na ung mmda..
pero wala nman ata clang ginawa eh.. hehe..
nakausap ko cya..
kaso biglang naputol kasi nawalan ng dialtone ung phone nila..
bayantel din.. tsk tsk.. buhay nga nman oh...
edi aun.. txt txt nlang kasi alang kuryente.. ndi makapag-ym..
tpos.. tinulugan nia ako.. haha!! :D
nung gabi, sa sobrang walang magawa, naglaro kmi ng charades.. :)
ang saya saya.. :)
bonding ung family.. :D
kumain din kami ng pandesal at tsokolate hbang naglalaro kaso malamig ung pandesal kaya ininit ko sa kandila.. :))
niwei... kninang umaga nman..
ang aga kong nagising.. mga 6 ata un..
tpos balak ko pang matulog ulit kaso may maingay na jeep sa labas.. inaaus ata nila..
nabanas ako.. bumaba nlang ako kasi ang basa ko sa orasan ay 8 at ndi 6...
tpos.. nung nandun na ako sa sala, naggigitara... tumigil na ung jeep..
asar!! hehe.. buhay nga nman..
aun.. tpos.. naglinis kmi sa bubong..
la lng.. ang saya saya..
c michael andun din sa bubong ng bahay nila pero ndi kami nag-pansinan.. haha!!
tpos.. wala lng.. nakakatuwa kasi nagtutulungan ang mga tao sa Brgy. Roxas District.. nyahaha..
pamalit sa bubong.. walis tingting.. basta.. ang saya knina.. :)
tpos nun.. nagutom ako kaya nag-almusal na ako..
tpos.. nagtxt cya.. tpos.. aus na phone nila..
tinawagan ko.. usap kmi.. :)
tpos.. uminom din pla ako ng beer at kumain ng pringles.. inggit cya!! >:)
tpos.. babay muna kasi kakain na raw kmi ng lunch..
pusit.. chalap chalap.. :D
tpos.. inayos ko ung mga project pero ndi ko pa napriprint kasi balak kong sabay-sabay ng iprint para masaya.. :))
tpos.. ndi pa cya nagrereply sa txt ko.. :)
tpos.. babay0o0sh! :D
*salamat po sa lahat Panginoon.. :)*
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
6:21 PM
stress..
stress.. it's certainly starting to get to me..
i've been very irritable lately..
*sigh*
~ there's just too many things that have to be done
~ i'm a failure
~ my guitar playing is starting to suck
~ goodbye dreams of becoming a straight avo student
~ a new vice [which i immediately stopped]
~ there's no going back
in other words.. my life's going downhill..
*sigh*
it seems that i always disappoint myself..
i never reach my expectations for myself..
maybe it's because i'm hopeless and worthless..
argh..
but i have to admit, i was very happy yesterday..
during the latter part of the day of course..
even though i had a terrible migraine the whole day, someone managed to make me smile and actually mean it..
when i was with that person, it felt like everything was fine..
like i wasn't a failure..
*sigh*
i really need to fix my life..
i'm starting to hate myself again..
i can't understand why even though i have been focusing on my studies, i have been constantly failing..
argh.. it's really frustrating..
maybe i need an inspiration..
i hope i've finally found it [[or him]].. ;)
Lord, thank You very much for everything.. :)
and you, thank you.. very much..
^[[]]h==3A[[]]7==! -------> grabe ah.. ang obyus.. :))
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Sunday, September 17, 2006
4:03 PM
time after time.. confusion is nothing new..
remember my post entitled "this is the story of a girl.."?
well.. i thought that that part of "her" life was over..
i guess not..
she was given time..
but.. she still felt that she was being rushed..
so, she made a very WRONG decision..
why wrong?
*emote mode*
to the person who is causing me much anger:
you really are stupid.. you really are a jerk..
i mean, how could you do that to me... AGAIN?!
you're mean and insensitive..
you've done that to me before.. you gave me false hope..
phukk you.. you let me wait for almost an entire week..
and then.. *poof!* nothing. damn.. you are one hell of a zoophyte..
to tell you the truth, i wouldn't have gotten angry if you had not sent me that msg..
it was like you were rubbing it in that you never had anything to say to me..
damn.. i hope no ther person will ever have feelings for you..
girl or boy.. lesbian or gay..
why? 'coz i know you'd only hurt and deceive that person..
you are a filthy excuse for a piece of schit..
schit from a dasypygal zoophyte..
you've done this to me a million times already and i've always forgiven you..
now, i don't know..
it won't be that easy anymore..
why? 'coz you NEVER learn..
and when i forgive you AGAIN, i'm sure you'll just repeat the same mistake..
oh, and by the way...
i do think you're stupid.. oh wait, i think i've said that already..
i mean.. c'mon.. you can't even understand SIMPLE sarcasm?! gosh.. i pity you..
oh wait.. i DON'T pity you..
you don't deserve that..
i HATE you..
there.. that's much better..
*whoo!*
okay.. now that she's let out some steam..
it's time for me to continue her story..
time.. *sigh*
she's hoping that he's still willing to give her that..
a few months maybe..
she hurt him..
and she regrets that..
if only she could put things back the way they were..
but the chances of that happening are...............
she's still confused..
she really has to sort out her feelings..
she remembers a question..
the question that her friend asked her..
her friend who helped her gain his friendship back..
she answered yes..
*sigh*
she wonders how that will happen..
she wonders if it will ever happen..
what you feel is what you are..
what you are is beautiful..
i wanna wake up where you are..
i won't say anything at all..
~do you want to fall in love with ;,;.;,;, and get over ;,..;,?~
why don't you slide.. yeah slide..
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
6:10 PM
stigmatized..extended
i write to you a letter
to say my last goobye
how ironic.. i wrote you a letter..
after that, you said goodbye..
i think its time for me to go away
but how..?
the sun it seems to sink now
like my love into a grave
i thought sunsets were supposed to be beautiful..
love.. grave.. they're not beautiful together..
this life is not yet over
it doesn't need to be saved
i don't really know..
maybe i do need saving..
well, the chambers in my heart
they echo all the same
God is the only One who can fill those empty chambers..
this solitary man
who drives himself insane
yeah.. i drive myself insane..
solitary? slight.. [in my case, solitary girl.. ...herself insane..]
well, i'll come back
and smile once again
i'll try and try until i die
to make you understand...
my love, i'll make you understand...
cause were stigmatized!
cause were stigmatized-tized-tized!
yeah-yeah-yeah...
yeah yeah yeah... how can i make you understand?
and well.. i'm not sure if i really want to do that..
i have no right at all to be in your life..
love is not possessive..
...the end...
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5:17 PM
stigmatized
last week, i heard some students singing this song..
i just had to learn how to play it..
as i was listening to the song, i realized that i could relate to its message very well..
If I give up on you
I give up on me
that is very true..
i guess that's why i'm not giving up..
If we fight what's true, will we ever be
i don't even know what "true" is anymore..
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you
i disagree.. God's the only One who can do that..
no one else can..
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as i am
you always do that.. and you always leave me..
And live our lives, stigmatized
OUR lives? maybe MY life..
I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
yeah.. THROUGH my veins..
no longer OUT of my veins..
self-mutilation is no longer an option..
When i hear your voice, driving me insane
well, it doesn't really drive me insane..
but you are very funny..
YOU drive me insane..
Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that i sit and pray
more like.. lie down, read Gulliver's Travels, and pray...
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as i am
And live our lives, stigmatized
same..
We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
together? on different sides?
i think not..
Just live our lives, stigmatized
just live MY life, stigmatized..
We'll live our lives,
i'll live my life..
We'll take the punches everyday
yeah.. i take the punches everyday..
the beatings.. the torture.. [nah.. that's far-fetched..]
We'll live our lives
MY life..
I know we're gonna find our way
i know i'm gonna find MY way..
I believe in you
Even if no one understands
you've always known that..
I believe in you, and i don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized
yeah.. i don't give a damn..
We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides
*sigh* if only that were true..
We gotta live our lives
Gotta live our lives
Were gonna live our lives
We're gonna live our lives,
Gonna live our lives,
Stigmatized
well.. that's the only thing i can do..
live my life..
stigmatized..
...the end...
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
7:01 PM
alo.
alow..
pansin ko lng.. sa huling post ko..
wala lng.. ang gulo pla nia..
prang mrami akong na-edit ng ndi ko alam..
labo..
haay buhay..
la akong masabi..
labo ko tlga..
un lng..
babayooosh.. God bless..
labo ko tlga dba?
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