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Wednesday, November 29, 2006
2:35 PM
tLe
ako'y kasalukuyang nasa comp lab..
la lng. :)
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Saturday, November 25, 2006
8:34 PM
*sigh*
i'm still happy..
this day was wonderful..
but i also still feel like crap..
i followed #s 1 & 2 of my plan..
i know, stupid..
but i told myself that i would do those 3 things..
and i'm sticking with it..
even if i know that it's one of the most stupid ang fucHed up decisions of my life..
even #3?
*sigh*
yeah.. i guess so..
even #3.
now, can't you see my stupidity and stubbornness just oozing out of my ears..?
gosh.. why must i torture myself?
even i can't answer that question..
oh well..
that's life..
that's me..
stupid.
*sigh*
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7:45 PM
thank you thank you thank you.. :)
yesterday was hell..
except for the "grease" rehearsals.. :)
today..
hmm.. didn't really start out that well..
then, after lunch..
gateway..
ninang, anton, and i were going to watch happy feet..
while ninang was buying our tickets, anton and i walked around..
i saw ate kai, airon, and someone.. haha.. i don't know her name. :)
then, we watched happy feet..
so did they but i didn't see them.
after that, arian told me that he was on his way to gateway..
nice.. so after the film we met up..
then, he went to where cris and the others were..
then, ninang, anton, and i ate at pizza hut..
after eating, ninang and anton went to the supermarket while i went to the foodcourt to once again meet up with airon and co. :)
i stayed with them for about 30 mins..
i had a really great time with them..
*tagalish mode on*
grabe, dun ko lng tlga na-realize kung gano ko cla na-miss..
ang bait bait nila sa akin.. haha.. :)
talagang mas close ako sa batch nila.. haay.. basta, ang saya saya nilang kasama.. :D
*taglish mode off*
after that, arian accompanied me to ninang's car..
then we went to mercury, then home..
what a happy day..
happy feet is sooo funny and cute!! :D
two thumbs up!! haha.. :D
*tagalog mode on*
salamat kay ate kai, ate phimie, airon, bryan, cris, arian, at mga kasama niniong ndi ko kilala.. hehe.. :) ndi ko inaasahang makikita ko kau.. ang saya saya.. salamat. :)
sana maulit pa un.. basta, ang saya saya kanina.. :D
~~~
dahil sa mga cnabi sa akin ni airon knina..
ndi ko na alam kung dpat ko bang ituloy ung #3 sa plano ko o ndi..
ewan ko ba.. bahala na..
pero salamat airon.. salamat tlga. :)
salamat Panginoon.. :)
napakasaya ng araw ko ngaun..
sana nman ndi 'to masira..
geh, aun lng..
salamat ulit..
*tagalog mode off*
thank you so0o0o0oo0o00o0o much!! :D
bbye. :)
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10:58 AM
misery..
misery.. sounds familiar..
i think i already used this as a title of one of my previous posts..
first of all, i'd like to say some things to some people..
iya, lems..
pasenxa na kau kahapon.. nung umaga..
nung medyo naiyak ako..
senxa na tlga..
salamat din.. salamat ng mrami. :)
jhobert..
salamat.. dahil kahit gabing-gabi na nung thursday, tinawagan mo parin ako..
mahal mo tlga ako.. haha.. joke..
pero salamat.. ganyan tlga taung mga pasaway..
ndi natutulog kahit pinapatulog na ng magulang.. hehe.. >;)
paul, rj..
pasenxa na kasi naingayan kau sa pagkakanta/pagwawala ko..
hehe.. minsan, ganyan lng tlga ako kpag sobrang naiirita na..
salamat na rin sa pagtitiis sa ingay.. lalo na c paul.. hehe.. :)
paul (ulit)..
salamat ng mrami kasi pumayag kang suntuk-suntokin ko ung mga palad mo..
sori kung nasaktan ka..
kuia karl..
sori..
sori dahil ginawa ko sa harap mo kahit alam kong ayaw na ayaw mong nakikita un..
salamat na rin dahil napakahaba ng pasenxa mo sa akin..
labshoo kuia.. :)
cho..
salamat ng mrami..
ang bait bait mo tlga..
sobrang thank you.. :)
classmeyts..
sori.. sori tlga..
dahil napakagulo kong magturo kahapon..
ndi tuloi masyadong maaus ung practice..
sori tlga.. :(
arian..
salamat sa pagtawag..
sori na rin kasi ndi parin naaaus problema namin..
aun lng..
haay.. buhay nga nman oh..
eniwei..
may plinano ako kagabi..
mga balak kong gawin hanggang whenever..
1. iwasan cya dahil iniiwasan nia ako at kung ako ay lalapit, iiwas cya..
ayokong mahirapan cya sa kaka-iwas sa akin kaya iiwas nlang din ako..
makes sense, ryt? ryt...?
2. ndi cya kakausapin..
bkit nman? because, if i were to speak with *....*, that would defeat the purpose of avoiding *....*...
3. hmm... may tatlo akong bagong sugat.. kagabi lang.. at balak kong ulit-ulitin ung paghiwa sa mga sugat na un para lumalim ng lumalim at ndi na gumaling ung mga sugat..
secret nlang..
aun.. ung lng..
geh..
bbye.
...the end...
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
10:05 PM
bad day. very bad day.
today started out just fine.
happy. :)
lunchtime.
okay.
until...
don't really want to talk about it anymore.
so... i slit my wrists.
hmm secret..
i had every intention of not telling anyone.
unfortunately...
...
so now, you're mad at me.
she's no longer mad at me..
but now you are.
i understand. and it's my fault.
oh well...
fuch.
bad day..
don't really want to talk about it anymore.
i don't even know why i decided to post.
very bad day.
bbye.
...the end...
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Sunday, November 19, 2006
6:22 PM
mag:net cafe...
dpat mag-uupdate pa ako ulit kahapon..
kasi napansin kong napaka-negative nung pinost ko..
kaso.. nakalimutan ko na lhat nung dpat kong ilalagay..
kasi.. nabanas nanaman ako sa grades ko..
ewan ko ba..
nakakasar tlga eh..
oo na.
tanga ako.
bobobobobo.
eniwei..
wag nlang natin pag-usapan ulit un.
kagabi..
pumunta kami nina ate annelle at ate annette sa gig ni ate tina..
pwede ring ate krina, ate rina, o kaya nman ate yabyab..
basta.. aun..
cla ung huling bandang tumugtog..
dahil cla ung pinakamagaling..
totoo un! :D
ung una..
emo..
tae..
ang sama ng tunog nila..
ang sama ko rin pero ndi tlga cla magaling eh.. >:)
pangalawa..
aus lng..
medyo ndi maintindihan ung lyrics pero di hamak na mas magaling dun sa nauna.. >:)
pangatlo..
all girls..
asteeg cla..
napakagaling ng 2 gitarista nila..
basta.. hanga ako..
kulang nga lng sa vocals..
ndi marinig eh..
pero magaling mag-compose.. :)
pang-apat..
"music as an art"
fuch. more like "music as a torture device"
sabi nga ni ate annette.. NOISE POLLUTION...
obyus nmang napangitan kmi dba?
hehe.. >:)
panglima..
aus nman.. magaling rin..
ang kyut nung gtar strap ng vocalist..
tpos.. mahusay ung lead.. :D
tpos..
cna ate yabyab..
galing galing galing galing galing galing galing galing galing!!!
as in!!
ganda pa ng boses ni ate yabyab!!
basta..
magaling clang lahat!
:D
haha.. ang biased ko noh?
eh, ganun tlga eh.. totoo mga cnasabi ko.. :D
hmm.. un lng cguro ikwekwento ko..
ayoko na isama rito ung ibang detalye..
ung inuman nmin ang "others"..
ako nlang bahala kung ikwekwento ko sau un sa personal o ndi.. :P
aun lng..
God bless!!
bbye.
*pagpasenxahan kung may mga typo*
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
3:59 PM
grades.. ... ... ...
today: giving out of cards..
grades.. haaii..
grabe... bye avo na tlga.. :(
haay... ... ...
sana kasi ndi ako sa science high school nag-aral..
sana tlga.. katangahan ko kasi..
pero pwede na rin..
sa kisay lng may tinkerbell eh.. :)
sana nman avo aprin ako nxt yr.. kahit alam kong wala ng pag-asa.. oh well..
.....
....
...
..
.
ndi ko na tuloi alam kung gusto ko bang pumasa sa grease o ndi..
cyempre tlgang oo.. sobrang gusto kong makapasa..
pero.. grades..
maapektuhan kaya grades ko..?
sana ndi.. ndi yan..
ada, maniwala kang ndi maaapektuhan grades mo...
kaya yan.. kayang tapusin ang schoolyr..
pero kayang maging avo parin nxt yr.....?
ewan.
malabo.
bahala na.
:(
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
7:49 PM
haaiii...
haay... buhay nga naman..
masaya na ako..
tpos.. may nangyaring ndi kanais-nais..
cyempre.. ndi ko sasabihin sa inio..
ndi pwede..
haay...
sori.. sori sau.. sori sa inio lahat.. :(
pero cguro.. tama lng na bigla akong nasaktan sa mga cnabi nia..
secret na kung cno cya..
ndi ko tlga alam kung bkit ako nasaktan..
ndi nman dapat ganun..
cya nga raw ung nasaktan eh.. bakit pati ako naapektuhan?
cyempre.. ganun tlga.. haaiii...
tama lng na bigla akong napaiyak para nman mapa-emote ako bukas sa audition..
baka sakaling makuha ko ung part ni sandy..
wala akong mapagsabihan ngaun..
ewan ko kung dpat ko ba ito ikwento khit knino.. ung mga may detalye ahh..
cguro.. wala dpat akong pagsabihan..
aun nga
lng...
mahirap 'to...
haay.. bahala na..
pero salamat parin po sa lahat Panginoon..
mahal na mahal na mahal po Kita..
bbye..
...the end...
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Monday, November 13, 2006
7:43 PM
oh no..
i thought i already had it..
i was so happy..
but.. oh gosh..
not another audition..
a more difficult audition.. :(
i'm not sure if i'll still pass this time..
i mean, maybe i might..
but.. *sigh*..
i mostly likely won't get the role that i want..
i might not even get a role..
i might be an understudy..
i might be a human prop.. haha..
maybe.. i'm just not meant to be in this play..
why am i being so negative?
the auditions are on friday..
i've got plenty of time to practice..
but.. i don't know..
something bad's going to happen..
i can feel it..
:(
oh well..
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
8:16 PM
chetter... :)
the pressure.
the drama.
the nerves.
the many things that have to be rushed.
the stress.
the people that you just can't stand.
the wonderful feeling you have while and after performing.
i miss all of that..
yes, i miss those things..
those undesirable things that come with the package of being in theatre arts..
last friday was my third audition to be involved in theatre..
my second to be in a play..
yes, i know.. i still lack experience [[no green jokes please.. haha.. i think i'm the only who's thinking of that..>:)]]..
the audition went smoothly until...
*thunder, lightning!!*
the dancing part..
haha..
yes.. i know...
I AM NOT A DANCER.. :))
but, it was fine..
i actually enjoyed the audition..
despite the fact that first, i could hardly get up the stairs..
second, i couldn't even get a stupid number..
why? the nerves.
oh, yes.. the nerves.
when will i ever get over them..? NEVER. :))
i miss creative music theatre.. cmt.. :)
i miss *~*~*.. yes.. even though i know i still won't be able to stand *~*~*, i miss *~*~*..
after all, working with people that you just can't stand is part of theatre..
i miss our weekly minishows..
weekly MUSICAL minishows..
the pressure.. the lyrics, the lines, the blockings, the notes..
so many tasks, so little time..
waah!! stress!! i miss it..
although i am already experiencing a lot of pressure in QCSHS..
i don't know.. something's different about being under pressure in theatre..
you know that whatever happens, you'll end up feeling great..
why? because of the audience..
no matter how badly your preparations went, the audience will never fail to make you, the performers, feel better..
actually, feel extremely happy and good about yourself..
i want this.
i need this.
why?
because theatre's one of the few things that keeps me going..
that motivates me to do the things that i have to do..
yes, i know that my load will be heavier than the others if i were to get this..
but i need that..
i need that to feel that i can get through this schoolyear..
that i can still manage to stay sane in QCSHS..
in a way, it makes my load lighter..
that's why i need it..
ironic, isn't it? :)
have to go. bbye. God bless. :)
*if there are any errors.. sori! :)*
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
7:18 PM
. . . . . . . . .
bago ang lahat..
nakasalamin na ako.
haay...
maglalabas lang ako ng galit at sama ng loob..
seryoso ako.. :|
ndi ako tatae.
nabwibwiset nanaman ako sa sarili ko..
nabobobohan..
cge.. sabihin nio ng nagseself-pity nanaman ako..
cge.. go lng.. wala akong paki..
eto ang nararandaman ko at eto ang tingin ko sa sarili ko..
nagsisibabaan nanaman ang grades ko..
mukhang dpat na tlgang mawala sa isip ko ang "avo 4"..
ang "straight avo"..
wala.. wala na lahat un..
oo nga, section lng un..
grades lng yan..
ndi porket ndi ako straight avo, ndi na ako magkakaroon ng trabaho..
alam ko lahat un..
eh, paki nio ba?! [[sori.. badtrip..]]
pangarap ko un eh!!!
at kahit anong gawin ko..
wala.. wala.. WALA!!!!
at ikaw nman shantrel..
wag na wag mo cyang pagbibintangan...
sabihin mo ng kasalanan ko un.. wag lng cya..
pucha.. nakakabwiset ung cnabi mo..
at ndi ako naniniwalang totoo un..
dahil ndi ko un nararamdaman..
naicp ko na rin un.. dating-dati pa..
at alam mo, wala cyang kinalaman sa pagbaba ng pagkatao ko..
dahil kahit anong gawin nia, ako parin ang gumagawa ng mga desisyon ko..
kaya wag mong sabihing kasalanan nia..
oo nga, ndi mo nman sinabing kasalanan nia..
eh, GANUN NA RIN UN EH!!!
bkit ba?! kelangan ba ung eksaktong mga sinabi mo ung ilagay ko pa dito?!
AYOKO EH!!!
pasalamat ka.. ndi kita inaway knina..
kasi paalis ka na.. kaya inaaway kita ngaun.. kahit alam kong ndi mo 'to mababasa...
ndi totoo ung mga sinabi mo knina..
ndi ko pinaniniwalaan un..
papatunayan ko un..
pero.. pano..?
NDI NMAN KASI AKO KASINGTALINO MO SHANTREL!!!
pakshet... bwiset.. haay..
paalala..
lumaki ako ng pinagtutuunan ng pansin ang performing arts..
NDI AKO SCIENTIST!!
bwiset.. alam ko nmang ndi para sa akin ang mag-aral sa SCIENCE high school eh..
nung 1st year ko pa na-realize un..
pero cge.. tuloi lng..
ngaun.. medyo pinagsisisihan ko..
masyado ng late para magtransfer..
at mahirap na ring mag-adjust..
pero gusto ko sana mag-aral sa music/al school.. o teatro..
kung pwede lng maging member na ng peta at maging hs drop-out..
kung pwede lng tlga..
mahal ko ang kisay.. pero ndi tlga ako para sa eskwelahang iyon..
para akong bote ng powder na naligaw sa mga bote ng toyo.. [[haaii.. analogies..]]
cguro dahil na rin ndi ko na masyadong na-eenjoy ang pagiging hs..
wala na akong ganang mag-aral..
learning is fun..
kisay was created to disprove that statement..
haaiiii.. bwiset..
ayoko na..
cguro.. kung nasa holy parin ako ngaun..
masaya ang buhay hs ko..
sama ko tlga..
pero totoo un..
kasi.. kung ndi ako kasali sa shs chorale..
sa forte impromptu nlang..
pwede rin sa acoustic club..
napakaraming pwedeng salihan na ikatutuwa ko..
haiii...
musical play.. miss ko na yan..
gusto ko nga makasali ulit sa isang ganyan..
mag-auaudition sana ako para sa grease kaso nagdadalawang isip na ako..
bwiset na grades yan oh.. dahil ba dyan palalagpasin ko ang pagkakataong makasali sa isang musical play..?!
na makasali sa play na LAST YEAR ko pa iniisip?!
oo!! last year ko pa alam na musical ang gagawing play ngaun!!!
last year ko pa binabalak mag-audition..
last year pa..
kakayanin ko pa ba pag nag-audition ako?
haay.. cge.. mag-auaudition ako..
pag pumasa, ibig sabihin.. sa tingin ni Lord.. kaya nman..
kung ndi, ibig sabihin.. ndi dapat mahati ang atensyon.. kelangan tlgang mag-aral ng todo..
haaiii...
bahala na c Lord..
bahala na c batman..
bahala na..
pero aun nga..
napakababa na ng tingin ko sa sarili ko..
nakakainis..
nakakayamot..
nakakabwiset..
haay.. shantrel.. ikaw ang may kasalanan kung bkit ako nagkakaganito..
medyo aus na ako eh..
tpos.. sinabi mo pa un sa akin..
ang galing mo tlga mag-timing khit kelan..
SALAMAT NG MRAMI AH!!! * note the sarcastic tone *
haaiiii... cge.. mahaba-haba na rin 'to..
baka inaantok ka na..
alam kong nakakatamad magbasa ng mahabang post..
kaya aun..
hanggang dito nlang..
bbye.
...the end...
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Friday, November 03, 2006
10:01 PM
"update" nanaman.
tinatamad parin akong magkwento..
pero wala lng..
wala tlgang magawa eh..
amboring.
knina sa jeep..
la lng.. sinisingil ako nung driver kasi P6 lng binigay ko..
eh, malay ko bang sa lunes pa uli ung discount?!
akupah! wala akong alam sa current events.. :P
tpos, may lalakeng nagsabi..
"eh, may pasok na eh.."
bait nman.. naicp ko..
pero cge.. kuha ng dalawang piso..
ipapapasa ko na sana..
lalake: okay na miss..
ako: po..? [wo0sho0.. magalang daw ah.. hehe..]
lalake: okay na miss; wag na..
fast forward..
naglalakad na ako pauwi..
may narinig akong kumakanta..
mahal kita.. pero di mo lng alam..
tpos.. may pumito..
tpos.. may sumigaw sa akin..
"ate, mahal kita!! mahal na mahal na kita!!"
deadma.
pinagsabihan cya nung isa niyang kasama..
"putanginamo!"
pero tuloi parin cya..
"mahal kita ateeee!!!"
ngunit humina ang kanyang boses.. hanggang sa tinigilan na nia ako..
ayan lng..
kakatamad tlga magkwento eh..
at.. hmm.. wala lng.. :)
salamat sa lahat Panginoon.. :D
...the end...
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
8:26 PM
isa nanamang walang kwentang "update"...
outdated.
boring.
dark.
...
in other words...
my blog.
*bow*
...the end...
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