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Friday, March 31, 2006
9:23 PM
you'll have to follow through...
haay...
ako'y nakaka-relate sa kantang 'to...
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Follow Through Lyrics
~Gaven Degraw~
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I,haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet
So,since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you'll have to follow through
You have to follow through
These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I‘m holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So,since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you'll have to follow through
You have to follow through
The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
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napakasaklap ng buhay....
sabi ko sa sarili ko...
last week na 'to...
i want to make this the best week of my life...
monday...okay na okay...
tuesday... okay parin...
wednesday... pwede na...
thursday... i wanted to die....
damn...
everything went wrong yesterday...
but i thank you heverly and jhon...
and also you shats...
also kim... and claudette... even rj...
sabi mo sa akin knina.. kasalanan mo.. kasi ang dami mo pang inunang gwin...
so does that mean i'm not included in your priorities...?!
fuch... ouch... fine...
just so you know... you're one of my priorities...
i even neglected m.y.m. because i wanted to spend my time with you...
i didn't want to practice mass songs.. i wanted to speak with you... to be with you...
and what did you do? you ignored me. neglected me. forgot about me.
damn... ouch...
i can't sleep at night...
the only thing i do is cry...
i just can't understand...
why Lord??? why wasn't i meant to speak with him on the last day of school???
why?? why??? why???
of all the days for him to completely forget about me...
it just had to be the last day of school...
ouch...
if you really wanted to speak with me... well, at least that's what you told jhon...
then you would have done everything just to be able to do that...
you could have gone back to school on your own...
damn it!!!
fuch... i just wanna die...
okay?
the "best" week of my life...
became the WORST week of my life...
just because of yesterday..
only ice age 2 made it better...
and our "koya-inday" radio drama... (hevs, kim, and me)
claudette was our listener.. haha..
i have so many cuts all over my arms.. damn..
i hope they don't notice...
~~~~~~~~~
since you wanna be with me...
YOU'LL HAVE TO FOLLOW THROUGH...
with EVERY WORD YOU SAY....
~~~~~~~~~~
all i really want is YOU...
for you to stick around...
~~~~~~~~~~~
but...
YOU'LL HAVE TO FOLLOW THROUGH...
...the end...
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
8:19 PM
update...
hmm...
haay...
mraming beses na dpat akong mag-uupdate..
kaso...
tinamad ako...
nu bang ilalagay ko..?
ndi ko na alam eh..
buhay ko...
hmm...
ewan.. pwede na rin..
ayokong magbakasyon..
pero ayokong magklase...
waah.. ewan...
*sigh*
salamat sa lahat Panginoon...
~~~~~~~~~
"i didn't get everything that i want, but i'm still happy."
"why?"
"`coz i've got everything that i need."
~~~~~~~~~~~
*sigh*
...the end...
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
10:08 AM
salamat ng mrami...
gusto ko lng magpasalamat sa mga tao...
kay andres, bunso, at hoshee...
dahil sa inio... ndi na ako masyadong malungkot...
kung ndi nio ako pinatawa nung monday... haay... ewan ko nlang...
salamat sa inio... khit ndi parin aus ang mga problema...
nakakatawa na ako... :D
kay iya...
kasi ang pangit mo!!!
haha... joke...
la lng...salamat sa lahat LABS...
nyahahaha... :)
kay lems...
sobrang concerned ka palagi ah!!
haha... salamat "kambal"!! :D
kay shantrel, claudia, at jessa...
kau ung mga nakakausap ko palagi...
lagi ako pinapakinggan... haha.. salamat ng mrami... :)
kay jhobilee...
bkit nasama c jhon?!?!
haha... joke... salamat sau...
lam mo... kaw plang ung alam kong nakakarelate sa nararamdaman ko...
laging nag-ooffer na kausapin ako... tnx... :)
kay jean...
kasi...bkit nga ba?! haha.. joke...
kasi... nasabihan kita ng isang sekretong........ haha...
tatlong tao lng ang nakaalam nun.. kaw ung pangatlo...
quiet ka lng ah... :D
kay rj...
dahil sau... ndi ako naging loner nung friday... haha...
salamat din kasi ikaw na ung nag-order nung coke float ko... :)
kay mommy at daddy...
dahil... napasaya nio ako...
kninang umaga... [umaga parin nman dba?]
salamat dahil ndi nio nalang binabanggit ung nangyari kagabi...
labshoo... :D
kay franco...
lam mo ba... kaw plang ung nakaka-gets kung bkit ko ginagawa un...
kaw plang ung nakakuha nung rason... un mismo...
asteeg ka nga eh... ndi ko aakalaing maiintindihan mo ako... :)
at cyempre...
kay rap... :)
salamat kapitbahay...
salamat sa pakikinig kagabi...
passencya ka na kung nakaistorbo...
sori rin kasi nakatulog ako... ndi ako nakapagreply agad...
khit ndi matagal ung pag-uusap ntin... nakatulong ka nman eh...
aus na aus na sa akin ung pakikinig mo...
lagin ginhawa na un para sa akin..
kahit ndi parin kami aus ni.... [hmm.. marami... haha!! sa bahay at sa school...]
salamat talaga... r olev blf... :)
"[hmm.. marami... haha!! sa bahay at sa school...]"------> ang weirdo ko tlga...
pinagtatawanan ang mga problema...
pero sa totoo lang... haay....
kagabi...
sa sobrang galit ko...
haay...
cyempre ninais kong magsugat ulit...
eh, ang hawak ko lang nung bolpen...
linabas ko galit ko sa binti ko...
ndi nga lang nagsugat dahil bolpen lng... pero nabalatan...
tsk tsk... haay...
salamat ulit kapitbahay... :)
salamat Panginoon...
[cyempre ndi ko makakalimutan c Lord..]
salamat dahil... kahit nagkakaganito na buhay ko...
alam kong may mga natatanggap parin akong biyaya...
salamat ng mrami Panginoon...
sori rin po...
haay...
haay...
.....
...the end...
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
8:38 PM
d0od
this one's for you...
i'm very proud of you..
you stood up to me... [one of the meanest "girls" to ever live]
and that shows that you've become your own person...
this feud has kept me thinking about why we met...
maybe it was because i was to teach you the art of standing on your own two feet...
and you've done that dood...
i'm very proud of you...
if that's the only reason why we met...
then my duty is done...
congratulations...
everything is done...
you don't need me anymore...
it's done...
it's done...
bye...
...the end...
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
7:07 PM
tempra candy...
heverly... this post is 4 u...
thank you so much...
tuwing ikaw ang kausap ko...
ang kasama ko...
alam kong masaya ako...
kakaiba ka...
andyan ka plagi...
salamat sau...
lalo na nung friday...
kung wala ka nun... baka ndi ko na-enjoy ung concert ng ganun...
cyempre enjoy dahil sa "churi churi" ni yza... at "sayaw" nmin nila audrey at jess...
pero ala lng... kaw ung mdalas kong kasama at kausap nun eh...
dahil sau...
naging hyper ako nun.. hahaha...
ah basta...
tempra candy...
asteeg ka...
ur da best...
lagi mo akong maaasahan...
wag kang mawawala ah...
:)
nung nabasa ko ung post mo sa blog mo...
wala lng... ndi na ako masyadong naiyak...
haay... napakasaya ng buhay pag ikaw ang kasama...
nagkakadevelopan na ba tau?!?!?!
haha... joke lng...
ah basta...
ur da best...!!
:D
God bless you.. :)
...the end...
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6:44 PM
btw
by the way...
i drank some beer today...
i got a little tipsy but i didn't really get drunk...
i'm going to drink some more later...
if not beer... maybe wine...
...the end...
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6:41 PM
rap...
rap... addressed sau ang post na 'to...
please...
napakarami ng nawawala sa akin...
sana nman... wag kang mawala...
please... kelangan kita...
kahit... oo... may nasabi ka na... nakasakit sa aking damdamin...
ikaw parin ang dahilan kung bakit nakakangiti parin ako...
please... mahal kita... sabi mo mahal mo ako...
pati b nman ikaw mawawala sa buhay ko?
waaaaaaaaaag... puputulin ko na kamay ko pag nangyari un...
o kaya nman... overdose...
seryoso.
rap... i love you...
it all comes down to one thing. all of this means nothing without you.
ang lahat ng ito ay walang kahulugan, kundi rin lang ikaw ang katapusan...
ang pag-ibig ko ay walang saysay, kundi rin lan ikaw ang dahilan...
i'm sorry for everything i said.
and for everything i forgot to say too.
when things get so complicated, i stumble at best; muddle through.
i wish that our lives could be simpler.
i don't want the world, only you.
i wish i could tell you this face to face.
but there's never the time.
never the place.
so, this will have to do.
i love you...
sana nman...
kung sakaling mawala na sa akin ang lahat...
andyan ka parin...
kasi... ikaw ang lahat sa akin...
[sori kung ang senti ko *iyak*]
...the end...
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Saturday, March 11, 2006
9:10 PM
unwell || sige
grabe.. andami kong posts ngaung araw na 'to ...
pasencya na kau..
wala kasi akong mapaglabasan ng emosyon...
kaya... dito nlang...
i think i'm not physically well...
mentally... obviously...
emotionally... if you've read my previous posts, you'll know the answer...
socially... uhmm... painfully... yeah...
spiritually... i don't really know... maybe... not really sure...
but what really worries me is that fact that i might not be physically well...
i don't know...
hmm... maybe i'm dying... [YES!!!]
there's something wrong with me...
with my body... [no malice please]
waah.. whatever... i don't know...
let's just see what happens...
who knows? maybe i'll be dead by tomorrow... :)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
fuch... bkit ngaun pa nangyayari ang mga 'to??
kung kelan malapit na mag-summer...
kung kelan ko pa cla mas madalas na makakasama...
kung kelan ko pa cya ndi na makikita...
kung kelan ko pa cla ndi na mkakasama... [not applicable to him... ndi ko nman cya nakakasama eh... *sigh*]
ngaun pa tlga nangyayari lhat na 'to...
haay...
ayoko na...
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napakasaklap talaga ng buhay...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
bkit pati ung iba..?
akin nlang lahat ng problema sa mundo...
bkit pati cya?
isa sa mga kaibigan kong mahal na mahal ko...
bkit cya pa?
masaya na cya...
tpos...
takte nman...
HINDI KO MATANGGAP...
ndi dapat un nangyari...
haay...
ui, kaya mo yan...
mahal kita pare...
damayan tau..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
sige
Sige, pag kasama ka naman,
Kitang-kita ko ang ating kasiyahan
Sige, wag na nating pigilan
At di magtatagal, tayo ay liligaya
Okey lang naman ang ating usapan
Hindi na lang babalikan ang nakaraan
Ang nakaraan
Ayos lang, basta't kasama
Konting alak lang, Kahit walang pulutan
Ang minsan, naaalala
Di magtatagal, tayo ay liligaya
Sige, pagpatuloy niyo lang
Unti-unting lunurin sa kasiyahan
Sige, pagpasensiyahan na lang
Mga pumipigil sa ating ligaya
Okey lang naman ang ating usapan
Hindi na lang babalikan ang nakaraan
Ang nakaraan
Ayos lang, basta't kasama
Konting alak lang, Kahit walang pulutan
Ang minsan, naaalala
Di magtatagal, tayo ay liligaya
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
grabe!!!
todo relate ako sa kantang yan...
asteeg...
sige...
tagay lng...
yeah...
...the end...
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6:45 PM
beer
i want beer.
lots and lots of beer.
mmm...
beer...
...the end...
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5:37 PM
|| research || tagay ||
haay buhay...
tpos na defense.. yes!! laking ginhawa..
aus.. galing galing ng aking grpmates..
aylabshoo groupmates... ur da best... :)
rock out reach out
aus!! aylabshoo ms g!! :D
go stonefree!!
todo kwentuhan kmi ni heverly..
yeah.. tempre candy.. :)
haay... buhay bahay...
not good...
buhay kaibigan..
not good...
buhay kapitbahay...
hmm... pwede na rin... cguro... bahala na...
kwentuhan kmi ni ate knina..
cya rin pala...
naaasar na sa buhay bahay...
haay... kung pwede lang...
gusto ko talaga maglasing...
haay...
umiyak pa ako nung umaga...
tsk tsk... nawalan ako ng ganang mag-defend...
pero... umokie nman nung hapon...
"take note......." =p
naadeek ako sa...
hmm.. ano ba tawag dun..?
basta... ung pyramid ni yza... :D
nakikain pa ung grp nmin sa snacks ni ms marie..
hehe.. tnx maam... :)
haay... gusto ko lng ulitin..
labshoo ms g... :)
<3
ayoko na tlga...
haay...
salamat ulit tempra candy... :)
tagay tau.... kalimutan ntin ang mundo...
tara!! sama ka?
...the end...
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
11:27 PM
bisyo
una... suicide...
ndi nman 'to vice.. pero npagicpan ko na ring maglayas..
nagplano.. ngunit ndi natuloy...
tpos..
droga nman...
kaso.. blita ko kadiri mga kulungan sa pilipinas..
baka ma-rape pa ako dun..
nagresearch ako on illegal drugs..
may binanggit din ung site na tungkol sa legal drugs..
alcohol daw..
balak kong ikarir ung titulo kong lasinggera...
seryoso ako.
pero ang pinakamalalang bisyo ko..
ay ang pag-ibig...
una, masaya..
tpos... unti-unti ka ring masasaktan..
pero kakalimutan mo un at ipapagpatuloy ang pagkaadeek dun...
tpos.. ndi mo alam.. bigla kang sasaktan ng sobra..
sa oras pa na kelangan mo sana un para sumaya ka...
sa oras na un ka pa talaga tititirahin...
sa oras pa talaga na wasak na ang kasiyahan ang pag-asa mo... dun pa nia talaga babasagin ang puso mong sugat-sugat na...
pero... sa kbila ng lahat nito...
adeek ka parin.. at walang balak magpa-rehab...
dahil dito mo lng talaga naranasan ang kakaibang kasiyahan..
..................at kakaibang pagkalumbay...
ayko na maglaslas..
totoo na tlaga 'to..
ilang araw ko na rin gustong maglaslas.. ngunit ndi ko tinutuloy...
bkit? basta..
droga nman..
kadiri nga ung mga kulungan..
paglalayas...
cno bang papayag na makikitira ako sa kanila?
alcohol..
pwedeng pwede...
pag-ibig..
wala na..
wala ng pag-asa...
ndi ko 'to titigilan...
walang magagawa sa akin ang rehab...
napakasakit talaga nung sinabi mo...
ndi ko parin mabitiwan.. napakalumbay ko na nun..
tpos un pa ung sinabi mo sa akin...
sana nagpakita ka nlang ng pag-aalala...
pero ndi.. sinabi mo un.. at mas lalo akong nalumbay..
sa lahat pa ng tao sa mundong ibabaw... ikaw pa ang nagsabi nun...
ndi mo lng alam kung gaano ksakit un...
kung wala lng c jhon at armin sa bahay nmin nun.. nagkulong na ako sa banyo at umiyak...
oo na.. iyakin ako.. lagi nlang umiiyak..
ndi mo nman kasi alam ang mga pinagdadaanan ko...
dahil wala ka nman sa tabi ko... halata nmang wala ka ng paki...
at may galit kasa akin...
masakit ka manalita...
tagay nalang...
kalimutan ang mundo...
...the end...
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8:06 PM
emote... :(
aus.. emote mode ako kninang pinoi...
bwiset nman kasi eh...
e2 na oh..
i hate everything.
i'm pissed off at home.
i'm pissed off at school.
i hate...
i hate every aspect of my life.
except... him.
i hate kisay.
but that's where i met him...
kisay has lost its spark.
now, all i see is a slavery and a miniscule possibility of happiness...
but i don't get to speak with him anymore.
kisay is draining me out.
it's drying up every single drop of motivation in me...
i hate studying.
i hate school.
i hate home.
i hate...
i hate the voices that i hear all around me.
i hate the noise.
this has to stop...
i'm actually thinking of taking drugs.
i know that it's just as bad as trying to commit suicide...
but all this talk of drugs during our MAPeH time is making me consider all the benefits of taking drugs.
just forget about everything.
just fly...
i wanna run away.
i wanna stop schooling.
i'm a rebellious spirit.
trapped...
i must be set free.
this is not me.
i hate hating all the time...
i hate me...
i wanna cut.
i wanna bleed.
but i won't...
check my wrists...
damn...
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sakit tlga...
*patagong iyak*
ndi mo nman alam kung bkit.. kaya sana.. wag ka ganun manalita.. ndi nman ako ganung klaseng tao eh.. ang sakit ah... sau pa tlga nanggaling... wala n tlgang saysay ang buhay... ... :((
...the end...
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Monday, March 06, 2006
11:51 PM
sori
sori sa iniong lahat...
kasi napakairitable ko...
sori tlaga...
nadadala ko kasi sa kisay ung galit ko sa mga tao sa bahay...
haay... sori talaga...
sori sa iniong lahat...
nga pla...
ANG GANDA NG "GOD"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Go Sir Mark!!!
sori ulit...
...the end...
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Friday, March 03, 2006
11:19 PM
???
anlabo ko tlga...
hehe.. la lng..
gusto ko lng maglabas ng emosyon..
ndi.. actually.. trip ko lng mag-english kahit ndi bagay.. hehe.. :D
this week started out as a very stressful one...
we practiced our speech choir presentation last monday because there were no classes...
i hated that day... not because of the practice...
but because i cried... a lot... because... argh... i don't want to think about it anymore...
that stupid *toot* just had to make a big deal out of nothing... grr...
anyway... tuesday came and i had only 20 minutes of sleep because of the project proposal which i still wasn't able to finish... *sigh*
i had no energy at all... i was too tired to think... or to even keep my eyes open...
sure, i still fooled around... but not that much... my body could no longer handle the pressure that QCSHS was making us handle...
we practiced at the house of rj's tita... i was the last one who left...
at home, i cried over such a petty thing... i honestly didn't think that i would cry because of that... but i did... only iya and karl know what i'm talking about...
like i said... i could no longer handle the pressure...
i hated myself... for a lot of reasons...
i just wanted to die... [as usual]
kuya aryan comforted me by letting me hear one of the coolest and most complicated guitar solos that any guitar enthusiast could play...
yes... i felt better... for about 10 seconds...
wednesday... i was able to get some sleep... but it wasn't enough...
we were supposed to pass the proposal that day, but because of my irresposibility... we weren't able to do so...
as usual... i didn't feel emotionally well... even physically...
for some brief moments during the day... i actually felt okay...
just okay...
i was finally able to get a lot of sleep because i was included in the afternoon examinees for the DAT...
i woke up at around 9... i planned on immediately working on the project proposal...
unfortunately, my dad accidentally brought the files with him...
they still had to get it from the office...
i started working on the proposal at around 11:30...
i was late for the DAT... how nice... but at least the proposal was done...
*a tear of joy rolls down ada's cheek* haha.. joke! :)
i felt a whole lot better... :)
today... i was... INSANE...
and yes... i think i felt happy...
i was fine... but...
i guess not entirely...
why..? uhmm.. never mind.
do i have a problem..? problems...? i don't know. i honestly don't know...
don't you ever wonder where all your happy thoughts have gone?
*sigh*
???
...the end...
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